YEAAHHHHH!!!......NOOOOO....

Dear lord.... Monday. My week off school has ended. At least I have no elluminate sessions this week <3 ( -HUGS AND KISSES FOR THE 5TH GRADERS THAT ARE TAKING THEIR WRITING TEST THIS WEEK -)

Okay. So I'm listening to "Be on you" by Neyo right? Whenever I hear that song I think of my Great Grandmothers funeral. Why? Because we were at her burial site. Everyone else went to go see. I couldnt bare to do so. I couldnt even look at her body in the church...... So I stayed in the car. Turned to a radio station. and that song was on. Yes. I know its about sex o_o;;;... But it still reminds me of that day. -Sigh- I never really knew her. But in the past 5 years I've been taking like... 2 trips a year to see her in Kentucky. So...
I think I was the only one In my family who wasnt crying. or all that sad... I mean... Im not like "She was old, she was gonna die anyway, So why cry?" I was just never that close to her. I thought I'd just be sad later on-
Since that how it is when someone normally dies. o_o;;;;  Like, My cousins death. I think for like. 4 days it didnt bother me one bit. She was shot. Some idiot thought it would be a great idea to play with a gun. (GEEZ! YOU THINK PEOPLE WOULD KNOW! THE DUDE WAS A FREAKIN TEENAGER OLD ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT GUNS GO BANG, GUNS KILL PEOPLE, YOU DONT PLAY WITH WEAPONS!!!!!!!) I mean, I was sad. But I wasnt really crying, Then I was cleaning up my room, Saw the necklace she got me for my 10th birthday in my drawer. I started bawling my fucking eyes out o_____o;;
So yeah...I didnt even go to her funeral. Well. I was AT the church. But I just didnt go in. So like, I waited outside..... o_________o;..

I hate afking while blogging, because when I come back, I dont feel like typing. -End-