I wish I could stop caring.

"Because of you, I remember crying till dawn boy, I regret every time I think about you when my heart was too easy, huh boy?, I’m too good to throw away and too boring to have, You should’ve treated me better when we were together why are you clinging to me now" 2NE1 - I Dont Care Lyrics.

OH LOOK. ANOTHER EX PROBLEM! Its like its all piling up on me....  k. This guy I've been off and on with since August of 09. talked to me today and wanted to get back together. Too bad I'm with someone I dont even really like at the moment. He was mad. Nothing I'm not used to. Hes always angry about something .___.;
He called me annoying while we were dating. He calls my friends Skanks and Whores at random. ._.; -Sigh- Why do I f***ing want him then.. if I know how much of a douche he can be.
He asked some other girl out just to get back at me. Then he has the NERVE to ask me Why I'm mad. I'm mad because your dating another girl out of hurt. He said we'll get back together once he thought about it.

He actually means. Let me see if things work our between me and this other girl. and if they dont. I'm all yours. .... I'm sick of being someones second choice because the girl they wanted at first didnt feel the same.
I f***ing hate the power he has over me. He controls my emotions. Hes controling if we should be together.
He knows I hate it when someone has control over what I do or feel....
GAHHH!. AND THE GUY I'VE WANTED FOR A LONG TIME DOESNT LIKE ME BECAUSE MY "3903284327487324 BOYFRIENDS"! LIKE I TOLD HIM MANY OF TIMES BEFORE. THEIR JUST MY FRIENDS, HAVE BEEN FOR AWHILE AND ALWAYS WILL BE.
Freaking insecure...