Rant...Rant...Raaaannttt...

Sorry- Havent been blogging this week. Busy with CRCT testing. I'll rant about it tommorrow.
-Sigh- All right...I was thinking about "Aaron" right? Yep. After.. 7 months I still think about him. And I've realized....I havent really been interested in any guys lately- Mostly because of him. Its rather sad that even when you give your all into someone and try showing them you'll always be there- They dont believe you after all the hard work.

I honestly, I believe "Aaron" has other problems in his life that I'm not aware of.. o____o
Or maybe...somethings just arent ment to be. Also this week has been a decrease in my self esstem. I met this guy- Lets call him Ray. I met him at CRCT. I really like him- His smile is freakin incredible might I add. But he doesnt feel the same. Actually when I talk to him he always ends the conversation right in the middle of me talking... I met this other guy- Hes a total asshole. Lets call him..."Ron" He started flirting with me, sending me notes, Because he apparently "Thinks I'm really cute and wants to get to know me", I totally had my guard up- Incase hes like that Jerk me and my friend India met last year. Lets see...Then he called my other friend Cute. She just ignored him though. And now today hes "trying to get to know" this other chick. And has the nerve to expect me to be cool with it - -" How he acted didnt make me sad- Way worse things have happened to me. I'm sad because assholes like him are the only guys that have liked me...lately. All the amazing guys I know are taken by Bitchy, Whiny, and demanding girls who only talk about Rap, Cute guys, Skinny jeans and how many hotties court them - -" I mean come on.... -Sigh- Exactly..

So this ends today's rant. No video of the day today. Sorry ._.

DANANANANANANAHHHHH. -Gutiar Solo-

Wow, I need a freaking job - -" Anyway. Choir Practice was okay. "Daniel" wasnt there sadly... I havent talked to "Aaron" in a few days, I hope hes all right o_____o; Anyway. I found this awesome song by Super Junior called "Twins" Yeah. Youtube that thing...later. I'm really tired and my throat hurts, So this might not be a long entry. -Sigh- I need to write Logic Part 6...or...part 7. I forgot, Alot of people are demanding it, but I've just been so busy lately..

Uhm. I was talking to Brandon today, Just a very normal convo right? His Boyfriend walks up, I'm like "Hi!" He ignores me .__. and starts making out with Brandon, I MEAN...Brandon was already sitting next to me, So His boyfriend was like IN MY FREAKING LAP. Brandon is all "Hello to you to...What was that for?" His boyfriend is all "I missed you!" I find it funny, Whenever I see them together I think of Yaoi. hahahahahaa. Anyway. I dont think his boyfriend...likes me. I MEAN, IF HE THINKS I'M GONNA TRY TO TAKE BRANDON FROM HIM, Hes worrying over nothing, Brandon is a nice dude and all, but were totally not like that. e_____e I cant wait untill CRCT is over, Actually I'm ready for the school year to be over! I NEEEEED summer vacation man! I've been working my butt off all freaking year! I NEED A BREEEEEAK! I hate talking about things like this...but I decided I wanted a new hairstyle. So.. I searched Scene Hairstyles in Google, I'm not hardly Scene, I just dig the hairstyles. I couldnt find something that is possible for any black girl- Anywhere. To pull off. .____. -Sigh- I guess I'll just keep my long bangs. Whats next..-Thinks- Oh. VIDEO OF THE DAY!

Mid-day ranting...

I probably cant go to Choir rehearsal tonight. Why? Instead of helping me with my schoolwork she'd rather yell at dad for things that are just... .___. Like yesterday at bible study. My dad didnt hold my moms hand the ENTIRE time they we're there. So that ment "He didnt want to me with her". Now she goes into the bedroom where my dad is every 15 minutes crying and yelling at him.

My mom totally doesnt deserve my dad. e_____e; Anyway. I'm gonna try...making a website again. Even though I prefer blogs... With the Music Players, And Tagboards and blah blah. But ehhh...."Daniel" might be at rehearsal tonight! So I HAAAAAVE to go! I'm serious, I really like him .___. It would be pretty cool to have a Real Life Boyfriend for a change. Since, I mostly date online. Because alot of the guys I know irl are....are...well. Douchebags. e_____e; Some of them are really nice, but I just dont feel that way about them... Like Tasha has been trying to set me up for Brandon since...since. 6th grade. But in 8th grade when we found out he was Bi and prefered males. She stopped pressing the issue a bit. owo; Whenever hes single she still goes on about it. LOOOOL! DUDE. Flashback to something only I find hilarious! In like 7th grade. Tasha was bothering me about Brandon. I was like "EWWW! WHY DONT YOU DATE HIM?" Thats when I found out they we're cousins. Hahaha. Anyway. Video of the day shall be presented to you later. I just felt the need to rant at the moment~

Events of the day. WOO.

Hmmmm...Odd day. I'll go in chornilogical order. First, I finished schoolwork, left the house at 3:30. On my way to Dollar Tree to pick up some Junk Food. I find Brandon and his new boyfriend snogging on the sidewalk. (YES. I ADOPTED BRITSH TERMS. Snogging = Kissing o____o) Even if it was..guyxguy snogging. IDC. I FOUND IT...kind of hot. -Cough-.. Anyway. I just said "Hi Breeee!" And continued walking, he waved. e____e; 4:15 I'm at Dollar Tree. I go to the Candy Section to find they do not have sour punch straws. I FREAKING LOVE SOUR PUNCH STRAWS MAN!!!!! So I just get this thing called "Cow Tales" instead. IT TASTED LIKE LIL' WAYNES CROTCH!!!!!!!!!!! So I just give it to my mom. 5:00. I'm chatting it up with some hot Junior boy that believes I'm a Sophomore owo; (WHENEVER I WEAR MY SPECIAL PUSH-UP BRA. I CAN MAKE ANYONE BELIEVE ANYTHING! -Adjusts the "Girls-.... HAHA. I dont even own a push-up bras. Mine still have Monkeys on them...well...Monkeys are cool anyway. Sooo...>____>)
 I have no idea why people sometimes think I'm 15. o_____o; I mean...come on? I'm 5'5. I'm Underweight. I still run around like a child at random moments. WHO WOULD BELIEVE I'M 15!? Anyway..... 6pm I'm at bible study. I go to sit in a Row in the sancturary. I try to get passed this Old cripped woman. I felt bad for her actually... I've been thinking about some of the things I have lately since I heard that Commerical about unfortunate children a few days ago. When I was younger I never really cared. Even though I live in a small apartment in a bad neighborhood. and have to share a room with my 11 year old brother. It makes me think...some people dont even have that...So why the f*** am I complaining?
10:30pm I'm in the car. Singing to Halfway there by Big Time Rush. DUDE!!! I FREAKING LOVE THAT SHOW. (Kendall <3 O____O) Kay. Video of the day. Coming your WAAAAY.

Sluts and Rants! (Odd title...huh...?)

Erm...All right. It was rather...odd today. I decided to hang out with some old friends today. Since their also fellow bloggers. Lets call them "Kayla" and "Kaleia" (I knew twins in 3rd grade with those names okay? .____.)

It made me remember why I stopped hanging out with them. They decided to meet up with some other old friends of ours. Hmmm...Lets refer to them as George and...Ronald .____.  We all went over to George's house. Back in 6th grade when I used to hang with then- I hated going to boys houses...because something always and I mean always went wrong while we were there. Kayla and Kaleia were 7th graders at the time. Since I'm at least 5 months younger than everyone in my grade here in Georgia. They were about a year and 7 months older than me. Since I was 11 at the time, They were 13. I mean...I'm sorry. But they we're sluts. They give Lap Dances to whoever asks, I'm serious. We were at this dudes house...I forgot who. But I saw Kaleia giving this one guy a hand-job. I'm like "OMG KALEIA..! EVERYONE CAN SEEE!!!" She didnt care...Thats what kind of happend today. with them being 16, It just got crazier. Kayla and Kaleia were on the floor getting dry-humped by these 2 guys. I stayed quiet this time, They didnt listen to me before, I knew they wouldnt know. Actually, going back to church started making me think better. I'm just looking at them thinking "Why are they doing this....? Why am I even here...? Why do I want to hang out with people like this...?" I'm tired of surrounding myself with ignorant assholes that only talk about Swag, Rappers and Sex as if their actually getting any. I mean, I actually feel better being around people who are Smart, Funny and actually want to go somewhere in life. I mean, I sometimes talk dirty myself when joking around with friends. But right now, for me its only jokes. I dont see the big rush for it all anyway....

Like alot of my friends started losing their virginty.. Is there pressure on me to join them? HAHAHA. CRAPLOADS. Even though Peer Pressure doesnt really bother me anymore. It starts to get on my nerves.... Like today! Kayla met Brandon, Yes. My hot emo friend I've known since 6th grade (haha. he hates it when I say that.) Kayla is whispering to me the entire time saying things like "OH MY GOD...YOU KNOW HIM? You LIKE him? You know I could tottally hook ya'll up right? You should totally lose it to him! It will be so cool! You'll be like Me and Kaleia!" BRANDON CAN HEAR EVERYTHING ALSO!!!! I'm just like "No. No. No. No. I'll fuck someone when I'm damn ready." Me and Brandon make jokes about how we're gonna have sex with eachother all the time...Even though we both know its not gonna happen.

I hate when I do this...I was talking about my day with old friends then started rambling. Its almost 1am. I'm tired. Just watch the Video Of The Day o____o

Comsopolitan...DAMN YOU!

Didnt go to church today. ._____. I seriously wanted too. FOR ALL I KNOW. DANIEL COULD HAVE BEEN THERE!! Nothing would have probably happened anyway. I would have seen him, said "Hi Daniel!" and went on my way. BUT EHHH. Uhm. I've been reading articles on Cosmo all weekend. Why? I got bored. The internet is becoming less interesting for me.....Anyway.... Just all these articles about "HOW TO HAVE THE GREATEST SEX EVER/KEEP HIM HAPPY/MAKE HIM FALL FOR YOU" Their kind of entertaining, But they also prove that guys are more complicated than a Rubix Cube.

"GUYS LIKE IT WHEN GIRLS MAKE THE FIRST MOVE"

o_____o. Wanna hear my idea of a first move. "Hi~ I'm Krista." .____. Yeah. Mind-blowing right? Makes every males knees weak - -" SOME OF THE ARTICLES I READ MAKE IT SEEM LIKE if you dont follow these rules to become a Man Magnet/Sex Goddess you'll never find anyone and die alone. -Sigh-
I'LL JUST STICK TO MY NORMAL METHOD OF PICKING UP STUDS~ (Oh jesus christ. did I just freakin say stud? SHIT I GOTTA STOP READING THESE ARTICLES.) Anyway. Video of the day

Daniel & Talent Shows!

LOL Kay. I was at Church today for my Leadership training classes. LOL it was so much fun! I even...met this guy. -Cough- His name is...lets refer to him as..-Thinks- Daniel? Did I use Daniel yet? I guess not. HE. IS THE SMARTEST GUY EVER O____O -Melt- He loves to sing, His voice is awesome. Hes a freshman. AND. HES HOMESCHOOLED. The homeschool part was a complete deal breaker. Hes supposed to be joining the choir. So I'll see him then.
I Also auditioned for the Talent show! guess what I sung? Romantic Cat By Chery Filter. The..."Audition Lady" Haha. Liked it because its different. Its in Korean. Thats what I'm also going to be singing for the Talent show.
My vocal range really shows when singing that song. So I hope I'll impress the "Judges" Unless some other Dancer/Singer/Rapper completely blows them away. There is alot of talented people at New Birth. So Its gonna be tough. But hey, For all I know. I could win. I NEED CONFIDENCE!

Video of the day:


Yeah... I'm not really...all that sure either.

SEX TAAAAAALK.

All right. So I was on gURL.com with a friend right? The Sex & Relationship boards. Since all the other ones are inactive. The Sex & Relationships board has all these odd/funny questions/sex suggestions. Uhm. Anyway. Me and my friend. LETS CALL HER...Taylor. were looking at them.
This thread...right here. Threw us off...
( http://messageboards.gurl.com/n/pfx/forum.aspx?tsn=1&nav=messages&webtag=gl-relations&tid=295484 )

o____o. Then Taylor suddenly looks at me and is like "WE SHOULD START HAVING SEX. COME ON. MOST PEOPLE LOSE THEIR VIRGNITY AT LIKE 15!".
 o_____o. Uh huh...uhm...yeah. Nooo... e___e;
I'm like "First. WHAT THE HELL!? DUDE. Second. THE AGE IS 16. Third. WE'RE NOT EVEN 15!!!!"
-Sigh-. She knows "Aaron" isnt a virgin, And apparently. Having sex with him should "Win him over"
FIRST OF ALL. WHAT? WHAT DO I LOOK LIKE? A SEX IN THE CITY CHARACTER? Shes my friend and all. But I worry about her so much sometimes~


I'm kinda old fashioned about Virginity. It should be given to someone I really care about! (-Insane Feminists come after me with pitchforks and flaming bras chanting "LOSING YOUR VIRGINITY DOESNT MEAN YOUR LOSING A PART OF YOURSELF!"- SHIT! DIDNT I DEAL WITH YOU GUYS BEFORE!?)
 (PS. I have no problem with Feminists. I was making a joke about how some take things waaay too far.)

And besides, me? having sex? some things in this world just dont go together. Lets look at all the things that could go wrong.

1. INTERCOURSE:
Me: Uhhh...is it in yet?, Guy: Yes....., Me: O___O; SORRY!!!! MY BAD!. -10 minutes later-, Me: I'm bored, Guy: HOW are you bored if your having sex?, Me: I dont knowww. -5 minutes later-, Me: Are you done yeeet?, Guy: ITS ONLY BEEN 15 MINUTES!!!, Me: Ohhh. Sorrrrry!, -3 minutes later-, Me: I'm a bananaaaa~ I'm a bananaaa~ I'm a bananaaaa~ Look at me mo-, Guy: What are you doing now...?, Me: Siiiiinging, Guy: WHILE YOUR HAVING SEX!?!?!?, Me: Why yes, Guy: You know what...forget it -Gets up-, Me: BABY COME BACK~ YOU CAN BLAME IT ALL ON M-, Guy: -SLAMS DOOR-, Me: How Rude!

2. HAND-JOB:
Me: Uhm..how do I do this?, Guy: You dont know how?, Me: Nooooope., Guy: ...uhhh.. -Explict instructions here-, Me: ALL RIGHT, Guy: AHHHH!!!! AHHHHH!!! AHH!, Me: Oh stop faking. I didnt even start yet, Guy: AHHH!!! AHHH!! AH!!!!, Me: Whats wro-...Oh shit my nail cut your testicles...., Guy: AHHHHH!!!! AHHHHH!!! AHHHHHH!!, Me: Oh that is gonna be so sore in the morning., Guy: AHHHH!!!! AHHHHHHH!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!, Me: UHM..I'LL GO GET SOME...bandages., Guy: AHHHH!!!, Me: Sorrrrryyyyyy hunnnnnn....


3. BLOW-JOB:
Guy: You sure you wanna?, Me: YEP, Guy: mhm then...Wait...wait, Me: What?, Guy: What the hell are you doing?, Me: Giving you a blow job...?, Guy: Your just blowing on it Krista..., Me: Well you said Blow job, Guy: That isnt how you do it....., Me: WELL HOW DO I DO IT?, Guy: -Explict details here-, Me: Ohhh. Okay~. -Starts laughing-, Guy: OWWWW!!!! OWWWWW!!!, Me: SORRY!!!!!, Guy: YOU FREAKING BIT ME!!!!!!!, Me: SORRY!!! IT TICKLED!!!!!, Guy: OWWWWWWW!!!! -Hour later-
-We're sitting on opposite sides of the bed-, Me: Something tells me your upset?, Guy: ......., Me: What if I-, Guy: I SWEAR TO GOD KRISTA!!! IF YOU TOUCH ME ONE MORE TIME TONIGHT WE'RE BREAKING UP!, Me: o____o -Poke-, Guy: ...... Good-night Krista -Turns over-, Me: Ebony..And ivory...live together in pefect-, Guy: What are you doing now?, Me: Singing...., Guy: ....I swear to god I'm dating the most screwed up chick in the world, Me: I CAN HEAR YOU!!, Guy: YOU WE'RE SUPPOSED TO!!!!! >_____>


So...Yeah .____. I'll spare a poor guy the pain.

"Aaron" and Bible Study!

Havent talked to "Aaron" in a few days... Why do I still think about him? Hes just...A JERK -HEADDESK-
Dude. I was at Bible Study last night right? It was so awesome.
First. We were in the Santuary right? You know that part of church where everyone stands up and hugs each other? DUDE. SO WEIRD. GIRLS HUGGED OTHER GIRLS. GUYS HUGGED GIRLS. But when it was tthe dudes time to hug it was like. "-Odd Stare-...... -HANDSHAKE-" LOL idk why I found that so funny.
Then. There was this...Super Sexy~.. 10th grader .____. I THOUGHT HE WAS A FRESHMAN AT FIRST. He turned to me and was like "uh...we're supposed to...like hug". I just went ahead and hugged him o___o. Rather Sad, That hug was the riskiest thing I've done with a guy in my entire life. .___.
And then when we went to our classes- Idk. Thats what everyone else called them. THESE....REALLY LOUD GUYS....Kept annoying us. Like. You've seen those rooms that have this...Curtain like thing in the middle of the room. Well. The girls we're on one side, other side we're guys. THE GUYS KEPT OPENING UP THE CURTAIN AND WERE LIKE. "Awww dang deez girls so fine" AND KEPT PEEKING.
Then Ms. Aisha was like "all right boys.. ..play time is over" and closed the curtains. This...really odd dude was like "IIGHT. YA'LL MEET ME AFTAH CLASS THO." It was so retarded. Anyway. Video of the day.

STOP HELPING ME WITH HEAVY SHIT!

You know one thing I HATE? Say. I'm trying to carry something right? It could be Idk. 100-50 pounds. AND PEOPLE INSIST THEY CARRY IT FOR ME.

DUDE. I CAN CARRY IT MYSELF. IDC IF IT LOOKS LIKE I'M GOING TO DROP IT. LEAVE ME ALONE! Okay. Maybe this is because I hate people who feel the need to "Protect me" or "Take care of me". JESUS CHRIST. I HAVE PARENTS FOR THAT. I DONT NEED PROTECTING AND I DO NOT NEEEEEEEED YOU TO TAKE CARE OF ME. I'VE BEEN FIGHTING SHIT ON MY OWN FOR THR PAST 8 YEARS. YOU DIDNT HELP ME WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, DONT HELP ME NOW.

._____. AND THEN MY MOM STARTS BITCHING ABOUT HOW I'LL NEVER GET A HUSBAND.
WTF? Dude. I'm not even 16 yet. WHY THE F*** SHOULD I BE WORRIED ABOUT A HUSBAND RIGHT NOW? Why wont I ever get a husband? Oh. Because I dont cook. Or clean. My plan was. I'll cook sometimes, He'll cook sometimes. If no one feels like cooking, WE'RE STUCK WITH POPCORN AND RAMEN THEN. And about the cleaning thing, How about he cleans up after himself and I clean up after myself!? BECAUSE WHYYYY SHOULD I CLEAN UP HIS MESS? I'm sorry. I just dont want one of those "Man goes out everyday to work, while I'm stuck at home, cooking, cleaning, bored while watching the kids" MARRIAGES LIKE MY PARENTS. And THEN when Man gets home, Woman bitches at Man for stupid reasons. Man gets pissed off and goes upstairs. Woman cries about how Man doesnt love her anymore.
....Okay thats mainly how my parents are but - -" STILL. I WANT MY OWN LIFE DAMNIT! I could totally have a full time profession and raise kids! WILL IT BE EASY? Haha. Hell no. WILL I DO IT ANYWAY? YOU BET YOUR CHICKEN NUGGETS I WILL!!.... End rant.


VIDEO OF THE DAY - -"





RAAAAAWWWWRRRRRRRAAAAHHHHLADYGAGAREURNRNNNNSSSSSHHHH!!!

Are you FUCKING serious!?

-Sigh-... You know what. Fuck "Aaron" I'm done. I tried talking to him and he makes it seem like I'm speaking a different language, I'm sick of doing this and this to keep his unpleaseable ass happy. He can go find another chick for all I care! I've always been understanding and caring of him, And he never believed it. Yet when some new chick who is the same race as him steps into the photo. Its like "She knows my life! She knows my struggle!" JESUS CHRIST! I BET IF I WAS SOME SMOKIN HOT LATINA. No wait. I COULD BE THE UGILIEST LATINA EVER AND HE'D STILL PUT SOME EFFORT INTO OUR RELATIONSHIP!

I MEAN! HE DOESNT HAVE THE BALLS TO JUST TELL ME "I dont like you" INSTEAD OF LEADING ME ON!!!!!!!!!! - -" URG!!!... VIDEO OF THE MOTHERFUCKING DAY:




I mean for the past...9 MONTHS I'VE BEEN TRYING TO SHOW "AARON" HOW MUCH I FUCKING LIKE HIM BUT NOOO. "YOUR LYING, YOU DONT LIKE ME!" WHAT THE FUCK!!! DOES HE GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ANYONE ELSES FEELINGS? Nooooo! IF I DID SOMETHING LIKE THAT TO HIM HE'D COME WHINING TO ME ABOUT HOW MUCH I HURT HIM! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT NO. I'LL STAY QUIET. BUT I'M SERIOUS, IF HE DECIDES TO SUDDENLY BE NICE TO ME AGAIN, AND THEN TURN MEAN. I'M NEVER SPEAKING TO HIM AGAIN, FUCKING WASTE OF ENERGY.


............

"Aaron" And Augsta Pimps!

"Aaron" is still confusing me... I mean, hes always so busy.... Its semi-rare now to talk to him when hes not busy... And tommrow I'm stuck at my church for 7+ hours. Why? "New members class"
WTF ARE YOU EFFING LEARNING FOR LIKE 9 HOURS? Oh. And then in 2 weeks. We have to take the class AGAIN. DONT ASK ME WHY THE HELL WE HAVE TO DO THIS. .____.

Youtube Video of the day:



Yeah... I dont know either....

You And I with our PANTS ON THE GROUND!?

You and I together, It's just feels so right. Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you. You and I together, don't ever let go my hands. even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you. Just you and I.Forever and ever.. " Park Bom - You and I lyrics.

-Sigh-...Yet again. "Aaron" acted as if we we're just friends.... Jesus christ..
First he acts like a complete idiot and I feel like giving up on him, then hes suddenly his normal sweet self and bam, I regain new hope.

I mean. I currently know 3 guys that actually want to be with me right now! Why the heck dont I just go with one of them!? NOOOO. I just HAVE to like "Aaron!" - -"....Love stinks.

Oh well...youtube video of the day.



Haha, I love Asathecomic.

Anyway. I was outside reading, And heard a group of guys yapping about how stupid twilight is, And how much of a "Sparkling faggot" he is. And they dont know why chicks go gaga over him. And how "Gay" Justin Bieber and the Jonas Brothers are. To me, They all sounded a bit confused and insecure...
Anyway. This one dude was like "And we all know that Edward Fag is a complete abusive idiot. Is that what chicks really want!? And that Justin Beaver.. WHATEVER guy! He sounds like a fucking 5 year old! and the jonas brothers cant even sing, WHY do girls go crazy over them". Instead of telling him to Sit down and shut up with his ignorant self. I decided to help him. Here is the part thats dumb.
I say "Its because they all have one thing in common- looks, Alot of girls would love to have guys like Edward Cullen, Not because hes slightly abusive, Tends to abandon Bella. And is just completey wacky. Hes extremely mysterious and badass, possibly interesting. Most girls just pass up all the bad parts and think OMG HES SO PEFECT! HES SO HOT! AND HES INTERESTING! AND HES SO PROTECTIVE OF ME! AND..... Like what some of you guys do with chicks. You know shes a complete bitch, but you still think her body is amazing. Right? Exactly. And with Justin Beieber, I know it, you know it, The guy is good looking, hes rich and his songs are catchy, Most of us know we'll never have a chance with Justin OR the Jonas brothers, But It wont hurt to act like a bunch of fangirls at random. But still..some of us are complete crazies about these dudes.. I'm not really a Twilight, Jonas Brothers or Justin Bieber fan, But complaining about it like you are....Kiiind of makes you look like close minded, insecure jerks... Which can be a turn-off to the chick you are possibly trying to snag....." And I went back into my book.

THEY IGNORED ME! - -" I DIDNT JUST RANT TO THEM FOR NOTHING DID I!?I THINK I DID... .___.

Dont play this game...please?

Urg... I feel like I took a huge step back with "Aaron". Today it was like I completely annoyed him with every word said.


Day before yesterday it was all "OMG I LOVE YOU." And yet again its like he hates me... I'm still going with what my friend Whitney said as "Hes playing hard to get". Well. He completely sucks at it.

Its so such emotional stress with him..First me and him have this amazing conversation that makes me think he might still have interest in me. Then I go a day or two just waiting to talk to him again, hoping another conversation will take us a step further in our relationship. But instead he just ignores me...  I kind of just want to come out and say "You into me or not? You are? Good, Stop playing these impossible games then, You arent? Stop playing this stupid game for, its only causing me stress and pain."
.____. But I wont do that....
I hate being the one who doesnt know anything about whats going on in relationships... maybe if I stopped being so submissive I might find out something... - -"
Blaaah. Now I'm thinking about him....Jesus christ. I ALWAYS fall for the ones that are like this...

Anyway. Youtube video for the day.


Is it..,.kiiiind of racist. -Cough- Yeeeeeah....

CAN YOU DO IT?

So... Awhile ago.. An ex Boyfriend told me to listen to this song by "Piles" called "Becky". I never actually did it.
Untill tonight I got bored and I was like "Why dont I search this on youtube".

I listened to it for like 30 seconds- Then turned it off. Why? It reminded me of him o___o
Like. A few months ago, Another ex told me to listen to this song by "B5" called. "Let her go"
Pretty good song, BUT WHENEVER I LISTEN TO IT I'M LIKE "Hmm.. I wonder how hes doing, Does he still think of me? I wonder if he has another girlfriend...how is life going for him...." I mean. I'm not like missing him or anything, It just makes me think o____o; AND ANOTHER EX. LAST ONE I WILL MENTION.
TOLD ME TO LISTEN TO "Remember" By Big Bang, The only Black guy I've ever met that likes Korean Pop.

ANYWAY. Video of the day here.



o____o Yeah. I'm sorry...If someone reacts like that after you break up with them- They seriously need some help.

WHICH REMINDS ME. I was coming home from church today. Saw this dude walking..No shirt, Sagging his pants- Wearing no underwear. DUDE. IT WAS DISGUSTING!
THE GUY HAD A FREAKING JUNGLE GROWING, BUTT SHOWING AND EVERYTHING. My dad is like "...Oh dear god...."



I'm tired of this...GEWD-NIGHT.

EASTER, URINALS, MASTURBATION, MYSPACE AND RACISM!

Ahhhh. Easter Sunday. It was...All right. Long. But allright.

DUDE. I HAVE SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT. FIRST, lets talk about what happened at Church!
I was rushing into the bathroom before church started so I could fix my hair right. (I remember when I used to not care about that stuff, Stupid mother implanting "I must always look nice!" In my brain)
I kind of. Accidently ran into the Men's Bathroom. It was so funny. All I heard was the sound of zippers and "OH MY GOD!!!!! GET OUT!!!!" -Giggle- THEN. After service I went to the bathroom right, This dude walks up to me and is like "Hey, Arent you that girl who walked in on me in the bathroom earlier?" LOL. I was all "I'm so sorry I was in a rush!". Hes all "Its alright, Its alright, SO. RATE WHAT YOU SAW FROM 1 TO 10." I say "7" and walk away. What? >___>;;; AND THEN WHEN I GOT HOME. I saw a dead cat lying on the ground. I think It was ran over. I'm like "...Awww...Poor kitty...". Brandon appears from no where and screams "CRAP!!! I KNEW I SHOULDNT HAVE MASTURBATED LAST NIGHT!!!! I KNEW IT! I'M SORRY!!!!!" And ran off.

Sometimes I just dont know about that dude..

And then when I get home. I go on Myspace right? The first account I made like back in 06. I saw a message sent to me 2 years ago. o___o
It was this girl talking about how she hates "Niggers". One thing I hate about the internet? You cant actually beat someones ass when they offend you. .___.

And Uhm. Last but not least. I was called a Racist today Why? I was talking about Jennifer Lopez and George Lopez and how I used to think they we're related. My "Friend" who is Latina by the way, Snaps at me o___o. Shes like "WHY!? BECAUSE THEIR BOTH MEXICAN? JUST BECAUSE THEIR FAMOUS AND MEXICAN DOES NOT MEAN THEIR RELATED. YOUR MY GIRL! I THOUGHT YOU WE'RENT LIKE ALL THE OTHER BLACKS AROUND HERE!!!!! YOU JUST LOST ALL MY RESPECT!!! I CANT BELIEVE YOU!". o____o
I'm like "I didnt think they we're related just because their Mexican.... With your logic SouljaBoy and Barack Obama could be related, I thought they we're related because they have the same last name..."

It went quiet. o____o

Pussy Monster? Exuse me?

I'll right... I was on youtube right. And heard this song.



What the f*** is this? I'm sorry, If you create a song about how your the "Pussy monster" You really deserve someone to walk up to you, and kick you in the nads ._. And whats with all the girls screaming?
Sorry to break your dream ladies, But Lil Wayne is never going to get close to you, or your pussy, Calm down. You know what I dont understand? How its 100% acceptable for a man to talk about this.
But I've never heard a woman brag about what she could do to a cock through song, you know why? Because the first thing you'll hear is "WHORE!" .___. Freaking double standards.

Kay. Quick rant over.

How to get boyfriends:

Apparently. By giving blow-jobs and Hand-jobs....
Kay 5 of my guyfriends, Got girlfriends this week. How? THEY GOT BLOW-JOBS. .___.

JESUS CHRIST! THEY DIDNT EVEN KNOW THESE CHICKS! FOR ALL THEY KNOW SHE COULD HAVE HA-...Urg. I'm not even gonna get into that. Anyway. I almost got in a fight. Over something reeeeeally...dumb. Kay. I was talking to a friend that I havent seen in like forever. So I hugged him. HIS GIRLFRIEND GOES MAD. I didnt even know he had a girlfriend....
 The funny thing is. the girl couldnt even talk. She gets up in my face and says "GURL. I GETTIN TIRED UH YUH JOCKIN MUH BOIFREND." I'm like "I'm sorry...did you just say. I'm jocking your boyfriend?...And that means....?". Then shes all "STUHPHUD WHITE WANNBEH GURL!!!! MUH MAN DUNT WAN CHUH! HE DUNT WANT YUH NUH MO. HE KNO HE GOT TUH GUDS NUH. AND DUNT NEED CHUH. SO GUH RUN OFF. K THANKS BUH!!!". I'm like "...Was that even a language right there? Or we're you just attempting to gargle peanut butter?" She pushes me. I push her. Her boyfriend steps in....e____e; It was so...freaking....crazy.

Anyway. I'm tired...Gewd-Night.